Sunday, 5 April 2009
Sunday Scribblings "Celebrate"
Sunday Scribblings prompt for this week is "Celebrate".
Boy is that a hard one for me in my present frame of mind, it might be cathartic though for me to work on, mightn't it. I am still a bit crazy here, up and feeling o.k one minute and down the next with everything that has happened going back and forwards through my brain and torturing myself with the details.
Celebrate, well last time I celebrated was a couple of Saturday nights ago when I was back in Junee. It was my old workmate Leonie's 50th birthday. So I went along to the party at the bowling club to see her. She always throws great parties and is the one person I know who can be termed the most social and popular person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. There were 5 of us girls working at Junee hospital that were turning 50 this year, Leonie was the first of them. Lindy, Anne, who I went to high school with, Raylene and I were the other four. So 1959 must have been a year for good people.
Anyways I went to the party and talked to and hugged everyone and danced and sang, because that is what happens at Leonie type parties, even though she does have the occasional drink she doesn't usually , she does not need to use alcohol to have fun. She had a local guy, Peter Hook, who was up on stage as the D.J. and whenever her favorite singer John Farnham sang a song she jumped up there and danced on the stage. So funny, and typical Leonie. She loves to have a good time and always encourages you to join in and do the same. So I celebrate Leonie, who has reached 50 years old and is a great person. She does not have the perfect life, marriage and whatever else but she celebrates when ever she can and nothing holds her down for long. She has lots of friends and makes friends easily by drawing people to her. In the picture above, Leonie is the one in the middle, I am wearing the orange shirt (with my big mouth flapping) and Fiona is on the other side. It was taken last weekend in Wagga when we had lunch together. Fiona was also a workmate from Junee hospital but moved to Western Australia probably 2 years ago and was back for a visit. Her home town is Urana where I lived for 6 years, while my hubby worked on the council there, so we have that link, I knew some of her family there but not her, as she was a bit younger and still in her teens when we lived there. My daughter was born while we were living there. Funny old place Urana , when we lived there, there was about 400 people in the town. I think there are less now and it is dying. It was sure looking very old and shabby last time I drove through there a year or so back.
I also celebrate new life. Another friend in Junee, Linda, became a grandma for the first time last Saturday night. Her daughter Deanne gave birth to a daughter of her own, a lovely new life, weighing in at 7lb and strong and healthy, named Tiane. So welcome Tiane.
I also celebrate my children. My sweet daughter Anne-Marie, who is studying at university in Wagga in her second year of a psychology course. My second son David, who is such a strong and happy, social person and my eldest son Michael who has suffered depression for years but since moving to Canberra is moving forwards with his life and is a good guy (always was, just didn't believe it or want to prove it). He got his driver's licence last week and bought his first car, so that is a really big step forward for him now he can be more independent.
I would like to say that I celebrate my marriage to Peter but at the moment I am still too battle scarred to do so. We are together and working on things and talking, probably better than we have ever talked together but it is still Early days and I am still feeling like shit, and as I said before, still up and down . But isn't make up sex great. He he. We have so much history together and I can not imagine ever losing that, but things have definitely been damaged. I guess I wasn't ready to lose everything we had in our past or planned for our future together, so I am holding on. I love him though I haven't been liking him much lately, but I want to get that back, then there is the trust issue.
We are planning a trip to South Australia in a few weeks time and taking the caravan with us. I have been down there a couple of times and he hasn't been to S.A. at all yet. I want to see Goolwa and the Coorong. Goolwa is the town where the Murray river meets the sea and the Coorong is an environmentally sensitive national park with a long narrow spit of land that is between the coast and the sea and is full of wildlife, especially birds, but is damaged by global warming etc and may not be there as it is forever, as a consequence. The Coorong is where the "Storm Boy" movie was set and filmed. Then we might take a bus tour of Adelaide, which is better than finding your own way around. You get the commentary as well, that you wouldn't have known about touring by yourself. Maybe take the Barossa valley route ( big wine making/growing area) on the way back, we are not much on drinking but it is an area that is very pretty and well worth the tour. I don't mind a wine, or should that be whine lately, but am certainly no connoisseur, in either form of the word. Anyway, our plans are not set in concrete at the moment, we will just do it and see where it leads us. Should be good, especially looking forwards to the precious time by ourselves together. The map we were looking at last night said that it is over 1100km, one way, by road from here.
Good and bad
and in between times
They are all part of your journey through life
Remember that none of those times will last forever.
Bad returns full circle to good
Even though it may take a while
Good can become bad
But indifference can lead to either.
Thank you everyone for your comments and support over the last few weeks I appreciate your contact.